Hallucinations of a long-distance walker

I recently read a facebook post in which some ultra-distance runners were talking about hallucinations they had experienced during ultramarathons, and I started thinking about some of the experiences I have had over the last few years.  Some of these I have documented in my race reports, and some I had forgotten about until after writing my race report.  So I thought it might be fun to start a separate blog post to write about my hallucinations, and I will add to this in the future – assuming that my mind tries to play tricks on me again.

What is a hallucination?

The Dictionary.com definition of Hallucination is: a sensory experience of something that does not exist outside the mind, caused by various physical and mental disorders, or by reaction to certain toxic substances, and usually manifested as visual or auditory images.

The NHS website says that “Hallucinations are where someone sees, hears, smells, tastes or feels things that don’t exist outside their mind.  They’re common in people with schizophrenia

Medicine.net says that hallucinations are “A profound distortion in a person’s perception of reality, typically accompanied by a powerful sense of reality.”

And The Cambridge English Dictionary says that an hallucination is “an experience in which you see, hear, feel, or smell something that does not exist, usually because you are ill or have taken a drug.

 

So having read the above definitions, you may start to wonder about my mental sanity when you read some of my experiences below, but I promise you, I am sane, or at least as sane as anyone else who is mad enough to think they can walk around a track for six consecutive days.

Man weeing against a wall

I had read about other endurance athletes hallucinating during long races but until the 2015 Chateau Thierry 24 hour race I hadn’t experienced any hallucinations myself.  My first hallucination wasn’t anything too series.  More of an ‘introduction to the magic world of the ultra-distance athlete’ 😊

All through the night, every time I saw this 'pay and display' parking machine, I thought it was a man peeing against the wall. Daylight confirmed that it wasn't.
All through the night, every time I saw this ‘pay and display’ parking machine, I thought it was a man peeing against the wall. Daylight confirmed that it wasn’t.

Chateau Thierry was my fourth race of 100 miles or further, and the first one on an open road course.  The race started at around lunchtime and was held on a 2 1/2km circuit that involved a short, steep hill climb at the start of each lap.  Half way up the hill was a ‘pay and display’ parking meter (see picture) and during the night I was absolutely certain that the parking meter was a man peeing against a wall.

As I say, only a minor hallucination.  There was much more to come.

Gollum from Lord of the Rings

24 hours in and it is sunny
People cheering us on

The 2015 Grand Union Canal Race was two months later and this time I experienced two hallucinations.  The first one started early on the Sunday morning, about 22 hours after the race had started.  The sun had just come up on what was a beautiful sunny day, and even as early as 5am’ish there were people on the canal supporting the athletes.  Or that is what I thought until I reached the people and found that they were just a bush, or a box on top of one of the many canal boats, a shadow, or some other inanimate object.  These hallucinations went on for about 3 or 4 hours until I reached the 100 mile checkpoint where I had something to eat which perhaps brought my blood-sugar levels back into balance.

I don’t remember experiencing any more hallucinations during the rest of the day, but I also don’t remember much of the next 8 or more hours of the race either.

GollumWhat I do remember though is about 10pm’ish on the Sunday night (actually, to be honest I was so ‘out of it’ that I have no idea what time it was, but it was dark and I was in to the final 13 mile section of the race) when Gollum from Lord of the Rings came to swim in the canal beside me as I walked the last few hours of the 43 hour, 145 mile, race.

I have never seen the movie, but I knew who that creature swimming beside me was.  I don’t know why he was there, but it was good to have some company in my hours of misery.

Hallucinations of a long distance walker
I thought I was hallucinating when I saw this on the Sunday afternoon. The photo proves it was a ‘real dinosaur’!

 

Medieval Village

I don’t remember experiencing any more hallucinations until my first six day race in Privas, France, in October 2016.  And even then, it wasn’t until the last night of the race until we went back 600+ years in history!

We had already walked well over 500 laps of the course and passed through the timing tent over 500 times, past the food tents over 500 times, and our support crew (who were stationed at the very end of each lap) over 500 times,

Timing Tent Privas 6 day race
The Timing Tent (reality)

Race Villiage Pivas 6 day race
Food tents on the right (reality)

but at some stage in the middle of that last night, the timing tent turned into a stone walled gateway into a medieval village, and the 50 meter smooth tarmac section immediately after the timing tent which contained the food tents, turned into a cobbled road with shop owners standing outside their quaint little shops.

Timing tent after 5 1/2 days!
Timing tent after 5 1/2 days!

'Main Street' after 5 1/2 days
‘Main Street’ after 5 1/2 days

Jim was still waiting for me at the end of the street offering me food, drink and cheering me on (that part was real) and then I walked around the corner into darkness (it wasn’t really dark) and have no recollection of the rest of each lap until I arrived back at the stone walled gateway again.

The experience was so real that even now, I can remember every aspect of that segment of the course – or at least I can remember exactly what I thought it was like at the time.

From memory, I had to have a short sleep early on the final morning of the race, and after I awoke we were back walking around the ‘normal’ circuit again.

Not really an hallucination, but in the days and weeks after the race I would think about certain times during the race and ‘remember’ where we were at the time.  i.e. on a meadow beside the river or walking through long grass.  But the race circuit was not that interesting at all.  No grass other than the football field in the middle of the track, and no river either, but I guess my mind was trying to hide the pain and discomfort, or the monotony of the course, by telling me that we had enjoyed an adventure.

 

Little children in the middle of the road

hedge people
Not one of the plant people I saw, but you get the idea.

In May 2017 I did my longest non-stop walk to date.  44 hours without sitting down once.  158 miles circumnavigating London’s M25 motorway on foot.  I started walking at 8am on the Friday morning and didn’t finish until 4am on the Sunday morning, and at some stage late on the Saturday night crowds of people started to appear on the sides of the road, cheering me on.  As with the Grand Union Canal Race in 2015, the people turned out to be plants, but this time whole families of plants were cheering me on. A big plant (the father), a not-so-big plant (the mother), and between one and three or four other plants of various sizes (the children), all standing beside the road cheering me on before magically turning into plants as I got a little closer to them.  Some of the children were even waving small flags or holding helium balloons like they might if they were watching a parade.

As well as the ‘families’ beside the road, every now and again I would see a little child, aged about 2 or 3 years old, walking towards me in the middle of the road.  The first few times I was scared that they would get run over and wanted to run towards them to save them.  I knew I couldn’t run to save them as I knew I wasn’t allowed to run.  I could only walk.  So I prayed that a car wouldn’t come around the corner or over the top of the hill and run them over before I could get to them.

And when I got closer to each child they magically turned into cats or dogs – or nothing at all!

One of the old men I saw carrying sticks :)
One of the old men carrying sticks 🙂

And a bonus hallucination during that final few hours of my walk was seeing some old men walking towards me on the footpath carrying loads of sticks which for some reason I assumed was firewood that they were taking home.

 

 

 

 

Future Hallucinations

To date I have completed 18 events longer than 100 miles (as at February 2018), and have only experienced hallucinations in four of those walks – or only four that I can remember.

I’m sure there will be more hallucinations in the future, and I will write about them here …

 

 

Richard

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